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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

title:{A great start to term 2?}

Term 2 has officially begun!! Excited? Anticipating this moment? Dreading the first day of term 2?
Hard to say. Mixed feelings.

Monday, ytd, passed by pretty fast. Though my lessons ended at like 5PM. FIVE. not one, not three, but FIVE. Of course, it ended with PE. and we just took our height and weight, and just sat in the AIR CON gym to listen to mr Ang. ((= He's nice - so far. But heard PE can be torturous sometimes.. HEARD.. from seniors. yeppies.

other than that.. i had like 2.5 hours of break.. coz i dont take tamil anymore.. so yeah. this LONG break was spent meaningfully in the canteen, with Thrina. We were studying okay. not slacking.. not sleeping. I feel happy! ((=

Tuesday came. Oh.. met yuhui at the bus stop and we walked to school tgther. Seriously, with our new full-packed timetable, i hardly get time to spend with my friends. At most, it's just "Hi, how are you, ohh.. what lesson you having now.. break ah.. okay i have lesson now. oOps.. bye"
i mean, seriously, how often do we get to mix arnd with our wonderful friends, to just catch up with one another. JC seems stressful, well, wait till end of years approach us. PROMOS will be here to stay, and i heard we will have lectures and tutorials and remedials and supplementaries all the way till 7 plus 8 at night. HELLO, okay it's for our benefit, but time is precious.. and we only have mere 24 hours a day. like 10 minutes have passed since the time i started blogging this post. SEE. time flies. PROVEN. URGH.

I dunno. i just feel like a completely different person, eversince i stepped into this new class, JAE. I have been super quiet during lessons (which is not a good thing), and im forever sleepy. I miss chatter 5 badly. All those times we had fun tgther.. during lessons.. eating sweets.. talking.. cracking jokes while the teacher was talking.. yet we still managed to understand and catch whatever the impt points were. Now, it's a total different story. Somehow, i lack that fire to keep me awake. Somehow, i feel im getting duller and duller by the second. Somehow, i feel that it's hard to adapt to sucha still and quiet atmosphere where even a pin drop could be heard. Okay, fine, the class isnt that silent all the time, but most of the time.. it's like this.

Somehow, i feel im putting on a facade during breaks and all. Like when i see Yuhui or other friends, i just become ME again, so enthu and happy. Like really, i dunno whats wrong. God pls help me find a way, i pray. Amen.

Like today, i followed Yuhui's class to the AV room to take their photos.. and i was so happy, so free, so gay! but the moment i left those enthu bunch of ppl.. darkness glooms over me, i become the emo me, which is SO NOT ME. argh. HELLPP.

Indeed, i feel that term 2 has started out weirdly, yes, with a total different me. Oh no, but i dont like it this way, i want it like last time, the fun me, the happy yet studying me. not the emo and glum and dull me, who stones in class..

Yuhui and me, taken during the mass lectures week. Notice the wide smiles, such contrast to present day.

i may look happy when i see you, yes, you do enlighten me, but in class, im totally different.. actually i think the happy me is only a facade to cover up for whatever im feeling deep within. This feelings surface during lessons and are kinda hidden during break times. Oh wells. i wish they would all disappear..

OH PLEASE! :(

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